looking back at 2009, i really am not gonna miss it all that much. i mean, i had some really good moments this year. and i don't mean to sound like a debbie downer or a negative nelly, but this was not my favorite of years. i would like to list some great times i had this year though :)

sunshine tournament.

festival of colors.

school dances.

saying goooodbye to high school drama. (aka, graduation)

wii nights.

fiesta days.

stadium of fire.

harry potter & new moon.

days at the rez.

amazing halloween dance party.

80's/70's parties.

seeing all these wonderful musicians in concert: benton paul, 3oh!3 (twice), the maine, family force five, hit the lights, a rocket to the moon, britney spears, the pussycat dolls, friday night boys (twice), hey monday, this providence, the bigger lights, stereo skyline (twice), boys like girls, nevershoutnever, the ready set, push play, cobra starship, big d and the kids table, less than jake, forever the sickest kids, all time low, every avenue (twice), you me at six (twice), mayday parade, the academy is, the secret handshake, the white tie affair, runner runner, rooney, tally hall, the crash kings, and jonas.

most importantly, i'd like to look at this year as a year of realizing who my true friends are. maybe 2009 was a test. maybe i was being tested into knowing what people i should keep in my life, and what people aren't worth my time. maybe this was the year that i could finally understand what being a true friend means.

all in all, i've learned lots of new things this year. and my mind has been opened a lot, through good and bad times. and i wish you all the best of luck in 2010!

peace out 2009.

small, inspiring quote.

when one door of happiness closes, another opens. but often we took so long at the closed door, that we do not see the one that has been opened for us. ((helen keller))

j o n a s.

i finally decided to do my post about the jonas brothers concerts i've been to.

before you judge, you should know that i started liking the jonas brothers in late 2006. waayyy before the whole disney blow-out and before their concerts became bombarded with little 10 year old fans. sorry, just had to throw that out there :)

p.s. please ignore my singing in a lot of the videos. thank you.

#1. june 30, 2007. san diego, california.

at the beach before the concert.

eeeeep.

#2. september 24, 2007. salt lake city, utah.

this picture's blurry, but i love it.

me and papa jonas.

ahh. my dreams came true :) dear big rob, sorry for jumping on the table.

#3. october 9, 2007. lake perris, california.

ahh. the beach :)

theres us in the front, and the huuuge crowd behind us.

i had to get their attention somehow :)

joe points at me in this :)

#4. october 26, 2007. salt lake city, utah.

6 am :/

us and miley's sister, brandi.

(the pictures i took at this concert sucked really bad. so you'll just have to watch the video, even though its not of the jonas brothers. its miley.)

#5. february 8, 2008. salt lake city, utah.

madi was there, but she took this picture :) (and i decided i need to wear those red skinny jeans again)

#6. july 11, 2008. phoenix, arizona.

me, marina, jamie.

demi lovato.

joe. marina took this :)

hahah this video makes me laugh.

#7. november 29, 2008. vegas, nevada.

on the way!

walkin the strip.

#8. july 4, 2009. provo, utah.

me, madi, alexis, whitney, brynne. (please excuse my face. i had my wisdom teeth out five days before).

so. close.

ahh, i sure hope #9 comes soon!

i don't wanna be your dummy.

we all know flakey people, people who are stuck on themselves, and people who really only care about themselves. so in honor of that, i thought i'd post the lyrics to this song by emma roberts. (yes, the girl from unfabulous)

I couldn't catch a ride, I tried so I was walkin'

Started raining when you called to tell me

You were flaking out again

I only had a buck, not enough to get a latte

So I sat down at a table and I thought about you instead

I'd have to be a fool to believe every word you said

And I don't wanna be your dummy

I cut the strings and I'm free hunny

I don't want your fast-life or your money or your time

So stuck on yourself its funny

Hanging with you feels so crummy

So I don't wanna be your dummy

Da dummy da dummy

We were walking through the mall

with all the carbon copies

Your showing off screaming on your sell phone

I wonder why I didn't see it then

You spend hours and hours trying to make your hair look sloppy

You spend hundreds of dollars on a tee-shirt you wear

For the week its "in"

Now that were apart I wonder if you miss a thing

And I don't wanna be your dummy

I cut the strings and I'm free hunny

I don't want your fast-life or your money or your time

So stuck on yourself its funny

Hanging with you feels so crummy

So I don't wanna be your dummy

Da dummy da dummy

And if your asking then the last thing

I wanna be is a puppet on a string

You're unbelievable- its inconceivable

If you think I'll let you make a fool of me

And I don't wanna be your dummy

I cut the strings and I'm free hunny

I don't want your fast-life or your money or your time

So stuck on yourself its funny

Hanging with you feels so crummy

So I don't wanna be your dummy

This dummy's no dummy

wow its been a few days. just been busy in all the events of christmas! but christmas was goooood.

i got my new camera :) and i've been taking pictures like craaaazy.

santa also delivered a wonderful snuggie to my house. (and yes, its everything the commercial said it would be) haha.

ren even got a present. but he sure doesn't deserve it! sheesh haha. what a booger.

miss topanga head.

boys confuse the crap out of me. can i say that on my blog? i guess a blog is kinda like a journal. so yes, i'm allowed to say that.

anyway, me, madi and dani went to blockbuster and ordered the first season of boy meets world so we can watch it. that show will forever hold a place in my heart :)

if you feel like watching an episode of it, then here ya go!

ahh. christmas eve is tomorrow. soooo excited.

bah hum bug.

i just watched a christmas carol and it was... good. but creepy. it has a really really good ending. :)

i don't really know what to write. but uhh.. christmas is five days away! so so so excited. and college starts really soon too. anyways, i feel like i've been on the computer a billion times today. so i'm not going to make this post very long.

the end :)

last night my mom and i were looking at some old magazines that she had from the 70's.

i told her i was going disco skating this weekend and she wanted to show me the styles from those days, haha. its funny because my mom was so much like me. or i guess i should say, i was so much like my mom. see that osmond's magazine? she was obsessed. just like me with the jonas brothers. she was the hardcore fan that would bang on the doors of the venue singing "we love the osmond's!" until the doors opened for the concert. not to mention, she went through a lot of trouble trying to meet them when she was younger. who would've guessed that in the future donny osmond would be a client at her work? :) maybe the jonas brothers will be clients at my work when i'm older...

i'm gonna deck your halls, bub.

a few hours ago, i was just kickin back watching jingle all the way, and the doorbell rang. it was three christmas carolers. they asked if my family was home, but they were all out. so i said "well, you should still sing for me anyway!" so they did, and it made my night :) even though it was a tad bit awkward. and even though i was trying hard not to laugh the whole time.

hey. if you haven't seen jingle all the way, then you should probably watch it before christmastime is over. i couldn't find a clip of my favorite part where the criminal santa says "i'm gonna deck your halls, bub." but this trailer will do :)

in the spirit of christmastime i thought i should post this.

seasons greetings :)

happy happy birthday quiddy dear.

his birthday was actually yesterday. but i forgot to say that in my last post. sooo...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER.

we went out to eat for his birthday today, and the funniest thing happened. we're just sitting there eating and he started blowing pieces of paper out of his straw at me, of course. and one of the paperwads kind of went out of control and flew over to the table next to us, over their heads, and landed on the table next to that one. the people sitting there looked around and me and christopher ducked. so they probably thought it was my mom or dad. my mom was getting very pissed though. saying things like "you're 23 now christopher, i shouldn't have to tell you to stop!" :)

i love my family.

and yesterday i had to teach primary in church. the seven year olds. it was very, very interesting! everytime i tried to teach something, someone would either be trying to climb out the window, or trying to run out the door. so we played "hide the shoe" game the whole time. if i ever become a teacher, i'll have to teach high school or something. or kindergarteners. (i have no idea how to spell that)

out the door, i'm gonna hit this city.

last night we went to a formal/cocktail christmas party.

sarah, madi, me, whitney, and heather.

and we played in the snow a little bit.

haha, it was a fun night. i really love this snow, even though its so freaking cold. and tonight i went over to whitney's to watch "snow day", because we watch it every year. its tradition. but... we couldn't find the movie anywhere. it vanished.

so, could someone please buy this for me? thanks :)

today is friday.

i got my hair did today. she cut off three inches and it feels like i have the shortest hair in the world. but really, its still halfway down my back. i've got bangs. no more dark streak in front. it feels weird, but i like to change things up. so its cooo :)

last night i was watching old home videos, and it made me miss being a kid so much. i miss the days when all you had to worry about was making sure you woke up on time to watch cartoons. i

miss boy meets world, bear in the big blue house, hey arnold, rocket power, beanie babies, pokemon cards, VHS tapes, light up sneakers, pogs, and yo yo's.

ohhhh, how i miss it.

today is wednesday.

being a cashier is hard work. just sayin.

also, i just keep feeling bad for people. today this bigger lady bought some pants, and she was so excited because she had finally found a store that had her size. then as she was leaving, she forgot the bag with her pants in them! and i didn't notice til she was already out of sight. it made me feel terrrrrrible for some reason.

on a happier note, i love my dog. and my cat.

ren<3

hidey<3

even though ren can be freaking annoying, and even though hidey is fat; i still love them very much.

soo i just re-discovered this picture.

it's my uncle, from england. who was in a band. check out those mustache's & outfits :) this means that i have a freaking cool uncle, who i have never officially met. but i will! i'll fly to germany (where he now lives) to discuss music with him one day.

also, i cannot wait til my mommy takes me to england. its going to be a huge adventure!

under construction.

i'm fixing up my blog. new layout and whatnot. soo, for a little while you won't be able to go to my profile or anything because i'm trying to figure that out. plus, no one reads this :)

under construction.

g'day mate.

holy crap. it seriously feels like there's two feet of snow outside. and i swear, the snow plow man comes down every single road except my road. but i'm okay with being trapped inside because my mom made snickerdoodles :) and let me just say, they turned out a lot better than mine and madi's the other night. (madi, we were supposed to put in 4 times as much butter.)

annnd i really want to live in australia, on a beach.

that kangaroo does not know how lucky he is.

17 days til christmas. :)

i've noticed that a lot of my blog posts have to do with music. haha. i'll try and broaden my horizons a little bit. but i can't do that until i tell you how amazing the rooney concert was on friday. first of all, we walked into the building trying to figure out where the line was. but when we walked in, rooney was doing their soundcheck. ha so we watched that, left and got some grub, then came back and waited in line til the concert. the opening bands were really good too. especially tally hall. i totally dug their musica. (:

crash kings.

tally hall.

rooney.

also, last night i watched paper heart with madi, and it was so dang cute. very different from a lot of chick flick love movies. we made snicker doodles, but you can look at her blog if you'd like to see the picture, because i don't feel like adding it haha. (simplylifeandme.blogspot.com).

((and here is a video from the concert.))

enjoyy :)

bubblewrap.

i just wanted to post the lyrics to one of my favorite Mcfly songs. i looove what its saying, i bolded my favorite parts.

I wish I could Bubble Wrap my heart,

In case I fall and break apart,

I'm not God, I can't change the stars,

And I don't know if there's life on Mars,

But I know you hurt people that you love and those who care for you,

I want nothing to do with the things you're going through.

This is the last time,

I give up this heart of mine,

I'm telling you that I'm

A broken man who's finally realised.

You're standing in moonlight,

But you're black on the inside,

Who do you think you are to cry?

This is goodbye.

I'm a little dazed and confused,

Life's a bitch and so are you.

All my days have turned into nights,

'Cause living without, without, without you in my life.

And you wrote the book on how to be a liar,

And lose all your friends,

Did I mean nothing at all?

Was I just another ghost that's been in your bed?

'Cause this is the last time,

I give up this heart of mine,

I'm telling you that I'm

A broken man who's finally realised.

You're standing in moonlight,

But you're black on the inside,

Who do you think you are to cry?

This is goodbye.

Yeah!

Turn on the radio honey,

'Cause every single sad song you'll be able to relate!

This one I dedicate.

Whoa oh!

Don't get all emotional baby,

You can never talk to me, you're unable to communicate!

This is the last time,

I give up this heart of mine,

I'm telling you that I'm

A broken man who's finally realised...

This is the last time,

I give up this heart of mine,

I'm telling you that I'm

A broken man who's finally realised.

You're standing in moonlight,

But you're black on the inside,

Who do you think you are to cry?

This is goodbye.

This is goodbye.