Utah is so weird. You'd think after living here my whole entire life I would know everything about it. But really I don't. You'd think I'd know everything about the over-powering religion here. But I don't. Also, it seems that I would be stoked about snowboarding, considering I live in a state where it snows half the year. But.. I don't snowboard.
It's decided. I'm going to school in the spring, but I'm taking next fall off. I know it's a long ways away, but I need some time away from this state. I need to see things outside of Utah.
It snowed today, and then it melted. So I started celebrating Christmas. Don't worry, this is a usual thing in my family. I will proudly state that I listened to Christmas music in my apartment all. Day. Long.
I think I appreciate them more now that I'm living away from home. There's nothing better than a home-cooked meal, even if it's only once a week. It makes a change from frozen dinners and cereal. It's such a great feeling just sitting down and watching Hey Arnold on netflix with my brothers. And then multiply that feeling by a million, and you get my dad playing rock band like it's nobody's business. Sunday's are great. Cuddling with my cat is great. I just love the feeling of home.
And I definitely don't mind when my mom makes me a loaf of pumpkin bread.
I've been wasting my time. Far too much. And it took me until today to completely recognize this.
So I decided instead of sitting around and being a complete lazy-head who doesn't feel like doing anything, ever, I'm going to start being productive.
Okay, it's impossible to completely stop being lazy, but I'm going to cut back. starting now.
As I was sitting on the couch today doing absolutely nothing, I pryed myself out of my blanket without really knowing what I was doing and walked to my car. I drove up the road to barnes and noble, not really thinking. But when I got inside I instantly felt better. Looking at all the journals, and then putting on those headphones in the music section was just pure happiness.
Whenever I find myself sitting on the couch doing nothing, I'm going to get in my car and drive.. somewhere.
Taylor Swift's new album? I honestly was expecting it to be.. the usual. But i really actually enjoy it haha.
The story starts when it was hot and it was summer and I had it all; I had him right there where I wanted him. She came along, got him alone, and let's hear the applause. She took him faster than you can say sabotage. I never saw it coming, wouldn't have suspected it. I underestimated just who I was dealing with. She had to know the pain was beating on me like a drum. She underestimated just who she was stealing from.
She's not a saint, and she's not what you think, she's an actress. She's better known for the things that she does on the mattress. Soon she's gonna find stealing other peoples' toys on the playground won't make you many friends. She should keep in mind, she should keep in mind, there is nothing I do better than revenge.
She lives her life like it's a party and she's on the list. She looks at me like I'm a trend and she's so over it. I think her ever-present frown is a little troubling. She thinks I'm psycho 'cause I like to rhyme her name with things. But sophistication isn't what you wear or who you know, or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go. They didn't teach you that in prep school so it's up to me, but no amount of vintage dresses gives you dignity.