a little bit of love.

Oh man. I don't know what it is about Pretty Little Liars, but I just can't stop watching it. I haven't had an addiction to a television show since American Idol.. and I haven't even watched that since Simon left. So basically I'm in love. I'm in love with all the love-stories going on in it. Aria and the english teacher.. why can't that be my life?

Like I said, I'm a total romantic.

Also, this is my plan for next spring:

There's a program in Africa to help endangered elephants. It's kind of pricey, and it's two weeks with no air conditioning, but it'll totally be worth it. Just look at their precious faces.

It's true.

Ohh boy. I'm becoming horrible at keeping up with my blog! I guess it's a good thing though. This warm weather has been calling my name and I don't wanna be cooped up inside on my laptop.

So I've come to the conclusion that I am a total romantic. I spend way too much of my time watching chick flicks. And daydreaming. And telling my friends stories about how I want my "happy ending" to be. And daydreaming. And listening to lovey-dovey songs. And daydreaming.

I'm just hoping that chivalry is out there somewhere. I'm not settling for anything less than what I want. And that's that.

:) :) :)

To a new year :)

You know.. it's been one of those days. One of those days of REAL realization. (Am I allowed to say "real" and "realization" in the same sentence?) And maybe it's an odd coincidence that today was my 20th birthday. I've lived a whole entire TWO decades now. And I'm still realizing what people I should keep in my life, and the ones who I need to throw in the rubbish.

No, I didn't make a checklist of who's cool and who's not cool.

No, I didn't specifically tell anybody that they would be staying in my life or getting the heck out of it.

I just made a promise to myself, after I made a secret wish on my candles, that I would rid myself of the people who aren't making a positive impact on my life.

And it feels good.

If I could give anybody any piece of advice on how to live better.. it would be this:

Be friends with the people who make you happy.

Numb.

It's kind of hard to explain the feeling of numbness.

You just feel.. there. But not really there.

Just a band-aid stuck to your skin, without pulling it off or even touching it.

But for me, the numbness comes after I rip the band-aid off.

Once I've torn it off, that's when the unexplainable

NUMB comes in.

But I like this feeling, for the moment.

Sometimes it makes things more bearable, you know?

Like there is still hope in this sea of sameness.

Things will go on, because

life goes on.

Summer reading.

I feel like a big kid.

I got my very own library card the other day! I decided that this summer, actually starting tomorrow, I am not going to waste away my life watching the television when I'm bored. (Seriously, you should see my DVR...) But I am going to start a summer reading list. I already picked up a book called "Paper Towns" and I am so excited.

Any good suggestions for books to read this summer? I'm open to anything.