rambling.

The truth is.. I don't know where I am. I don't know what things will be like in ten years, one year, or even one week. I'm a dreamer. I come up with goals and tasks and instantly want to complete them. I change my mind too often. I'm too softhearted with people who are mean. I give everyone a chance, a second chance, and sometimes even a third chance. I get myself into weird and awkward situations. I'm hopeful. I wish I could read minds, because for some reason that seems like the answer to everything. I feel like I'm being smart when I overanalyze things. Then I realize I'm being stupid. Sometimes I don't use good judgement, because I don't like to judge. And that creates another crazy situation.

But the thing is.. I know where I want to go. I'm dreaming of things that bring me happiness, dreams that are realistic. My mind runs a million miles an hour, but if it didn't I would be worried. I love thinking about earth, and people, and life. I don't care if people judge me. It makes me like my viewpoints on life even more. I give out too many chances, but if I didn't I'd be living a cautious life. And what's the fun in that? Life's just a big ol' inside joke anyway, right?

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It's a Mcfly day.

Some people run into the fire,

Some people hide their every desire...

Some people fight,

Some people fall.

Others pretend they don't care at all.

If you wanna fight, I'll stand right beside you.

The day that you fall, I'll be right behind you to pick up the pieces.

If you don't believe me, just look into my eyes.

Cause the heart never lies.

So basically, today has been a Mcfly day. If you haven't heard of them, or listened to them.. please do so. Mcfly will always be a remembrance of my teenage years. I love that I can listen to every song of theirs on my ipod and come up with a memory for every single one.

(Trust me, I tried it today and it was extremely easy.)

And this band never fails to put a smile on my face.

a little bit of love.

Oh man. I don't know what it is about Pretty Little Liars, but I just can't stop watching it. I haven't had an addiction to a television show since American Idol.. and I haven't even watched that since Simon left. So basically I'm in love. I'm in love with all the love-stories going on in it. Aria and the english teacher.. why can't that be my life?

Like I said, I'm a total romantic.

Also, this is my plan for next spring:

There's a program in Africa to help endangered elephants. It's kind of pricey, and it's two weeks with no air conditioning, but it'll totally be worth it. Just look at their precious faces.

It's true.

Ohh boy. I'm becoming horrible at keeping up with my blog! I guess it's a good thing though. This warm weather has been calling my name and I don't wanna be cooped up inside on my laptop.

So I've come to the conclusion that I am a total romantic. I spend way too much of my time watching chick flicks. And daydreaming. And telling my friends stories about how I want my "happy ending" to be. And daydreaming. And listening to lovey-dovey songs. And daydreaming.

I'm just hoping that chivalry is out there somewhere. I'm not settling for anything less than what I want. And that's that.

:) :) :)

To a new year :)

You know.. it's been one of those days. One of those days of REAL realization. (Am I allowed to say "real" and "realization" in the same sentence?) And maybe it's an odd coincidence that today was my 20th birthday. I've lived a whole entire TWO decades now. And I'm still realizing what people I should keep in my life, and the ones who I need to throw in the rubbish.

No, I didn't make a checklist of who's cool and who's not cool.

No, I didn't specifically tell anybody that they would be staying in my life or getting the heck out of it.

I just made a promise to myself, after I made a secret wish on my candles, that I would rid myself of the people who aren't making a positive impact on my life.

And it feels good.

If I could give anybody any piece of advice on how to live better.. it would be this:

Be friends with the people who make you happy.