You.

We all know how hard it is to face your fears. Something might be extremely frightening for someone, while it's not even a big deal for somebody else. I am feeling so inspired tonight after watching this for the 15th time:

Demi Lovato = hero. I've been a Demi fan since I was 16, and she's only gotten more and more amazing. Seriously, right? Such a brave girl!

The first time I heard her come out with the world about her issues, I was like "wow, it's like she's talking to me!" It really is important to talk about your issues with other people. These past two years I've dealt with terrible anxiety. A couple months ago I think I hit the darkest time in my life. A time of complete and utter lonesomeness. I was having this battle inside my own head against my own mind, and that to me is harder than any battle in the world. I felt like I was going crazy. I'm not writing this down for pity or sorrow or anything like that. I may not ever completely get rid of this anxiety, but at least I can be aware of it. I've learned that there are SO many people out there dealing with very similar things. My wish is to be able to help somebody else who may be at a low point in their life, and while doing that I can help myself.

We are all in this together, honestly. I am so touched by those who have helped me in my struggle, and I am so grateful for a life where I can learn new things everyday.

Be you. Find you. Be happy with that.

this is your time.

Look at you. You're young. And you're scared. Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed. Stop swallowing your words. Stop caring what other people think. Wear what you want. Say what you want. Listen to the music you want to listen to. Play it loud as hell and dance to it. Go out for a drive at midnight and forget you have school the next day. Stop waiting for friday. Live now. Do it now. Take risks. Tell secrets. This life is yours.

When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?

Just remember: there are no set guidelines for life. All you can do is follow your heart.

how i created a happy day:

• woke up not too early, not too late.
• boy meets world (i decided i will not settle for love unless its like topanga and cory's)
• candy corn
• michelle branch
• date with puppy. we drove up to my favorite lookout spot and looked at the pretty autumn leaves.

• finished reading "perks of being a wallflower"
• gave my car a NEW tattoo. wassup john lennon!

• tomato soup
• wool socks

i love having days off work.

happy thoughts.

This past week I've been doing a lot of reminiscing with old friends. It's funny how I can remember a billion old memories but still can't remember an algebraic equation. In any case though, the memories are much more important to me than math, so I'm not complaining :)

First I was reminded of this time. And after tears were streaming down my face from laughing so hard, I found this video:

By that point I was rolling over singing Year 3000 and missing the good ol days when summer was among us and grass wasn't frosty.

It's okay though, I'll be seeing this and this in about a week. Holla!

rambling.

The truth is.. I don't know where I am. I don't know what things will be like in ten years, one year, or even one week. I'm a dreamer. I come up with goals and tasks and instantly want to complete them. I change my mind too often. I'm too softhearted with people who are mean. I give everyone a chance, a second chance, and sometimes even a third chance. I get myself into weird and awkward situations. I'm hopeful. I wish I could read minds, because for some reason that seems like the answer to everything. I feel like I'm being smart when I overanalyze things. Then I realize I'm being stupid. Sometimes I don't use good judgement, because I don't like to judge. And that creates another crazy situation.

But the thing is.. I know where I want to go. I'm dreaming of things that bring me happiness, dreams that are realistic. My mind runs a million miles an hour, but if it didn't I would be worried. I love thinking about earth, and people, and life. I don't care if people judge me. It makes me like my viewpoints on life even more. I give out too many chances, but if I didn't I'd be living a cautious life. And what's the fun in that? Life's just a big ol' inside joke anyway, right?

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